I've just realized how oblivious and hurtful I can be, and I'm sorry for that.

I realized I have nothing to say for myself outside of "well what did you expect", and I'm sorry for that too.

I'm sorry for not giving a fuck and thinking only of myself.

I'm sorry for not being the happy, zealous person that *I* think I should be.

I'm sorry for doing the things that I do, whatever they are.

Sorry for being who I am, instead of who you think I should be.

I'm sorry for a lot of things. Most of which I have made no attempt to alter or correct in any way, because I have come to terms with how much they suck, and tend to avoid situations where they will rear their ugly heads.

And it's not all because I am melancholy or self-deprecating. It's because I know my faults, and that they ARE faults. I'm not sorry for myself, but for the people who get hurt by me. Like a gorrilla in a glass factory, cursing himself every three seconds.

But whatever. Another entry to bum you out. Another reason for you to tell me how much you love me for who I am, right? But of course.. Why else do I update this thing?